I talk #OctPoWriMo 2013 day 7

Me being strong

me being patient

me being happy

me being perfect

often the positives

make my life so bright

when I know that things

will be on my side

Fate then pushes me

to go forth and forth

filled with success

walking on the path, I see

I am a northern star

Showing everyone the path

People can rely on me

for I will never misguide

Me being weak

me being dull

me being impatient

me being crooked

then comes these thoughts

when positives dont flow

for mind can never be empty

often negativity comes in too

then I stay

like some water at one place

I see none

The star is lost in black sky

who will guide me then?

who will show me the way? 

these are my two halves

which fight sometimes

all along the way

But I put the thoughts aside

for people are still looking 

at the stronger part

for people are still looking 

at the norther star

(Let's) Fall into Love

" 'Why don't you just call me Viv? Everyone calls me that'

'Your name so beautiful, I don't want to cut even a single syllable of it'

'I don't know whats about you. I mean, you are ugly, that weird face structure makes me laugh on you'

'If my face makes you laugh, am glad am ugly'

'See? Again? Anyway, you haven't called since long. I am seeing you after almost half a decade'

'You pushed me aside Vivian. I couldn't do much. I felt I should drift apart, to keep you happy'

'Who talks like that? Really? In this selfish world, how can you be... like this?'

'You want to dance?'

'If you insist, then sure'

'Fall into Love' by Jake Monaco plays in background of a near-empty country bar.

'You dance well Ray'
'A lot has changed in last years Vivian'
'So how is your wife doing?'
'We... separated'
'Oh! sorry for asking that. I hope things will be okay Ray'
'Things were never okay since you left Vivian' (in a monotonous tone)
'You said something?'
'Oh no! I should be leaving now. Its getting too late. I hope I will not have to wait another couple of years to see you?'
'I told you my address. You can drop by anytime. I will be looking forward to seeing you now'
'That sounds great. Stay cool Vivian.'
'And you stay ugly Ray'
'For you, I don't mind. Goodnight' 

They kiss each other goodbyes.
Vivian Smiles looking at him while he leaves.
(To herself) 'I haven't seen something so beautiful like him' ".

Its just like the summers you see in the films.. 

Lets fall in Love...again?

2012, May
Its exam time again. She's stuck in the books for like hours till now. Helpless, tires, blackout, dull, restless, surrounded by negative vibes. She gave away the books. Sitting on the chair, straightened her legs and reached the corner of the bed. Looked up at the fan. Stared at it for some time.
"I should make a call", she said to herself. And dialed his number. He didn't pick up, must be busy.
Staring at the ceiling fan again, she dozed back to the time of an year ago. Same time, same day maybe. Same exam tension for sure and same recklessness.
2011, May
Haven't slept for days properly. Its already 3 am and she has given up hope for studying, at least for now.
She made a call. To him of course. He'd cut the phone and called her.
"Hmm.. Hi", she said in a tone assuring she has given up studying.
"Hey", he said, in a tone which surely tells he has given up hope. Hope for living.
"How are you?", he asks.
"Am not so good. Exams are on head and I cant even remember a word I have been studying since days by now and you?", she said.
What would he say? He's already heartbroken. Reason? She left him. Then why is she calling him? Even she doesn't know.
And then the time took a twirl. They talked as if nothing wrong ever happened between them. And he, he just started breathing again. The clock has stopped, as if only for them. The darkness outside the window slowly lifted up. The first yellow ray of sunshine entered, so did the bright early morning. Sure, no matter how long & dark the night is, God assures rays of hope, happiness, new morning comes in all's way.
The clock struck 5am.
"I really wanna have an ice-cream", she said to him.
"Even I want to. Mind of we have it together?", he said.
"Sure! But I want to have it now!", she urged.
"I'll be at your gate in 10 minutes. Then we can go to any nearby mother dairy and get ice-creams. Say?", he said.
"Dude! you look impatient to have this ice-cream", she said taunting.
"Am impatient to see you, ice- cream is just a pretext", he said.
She rolled her eyes and blushed on her side of phone. Without any prejudices, she left her home at 5:10am.
None of them had hair groomed, or face washed or clothes pretty. He was already waiting at her gate in his car. Just when she came, he said opening the gate, "Shall we?"
And so they drove off. Not to some 100 miles drive but just a few kilometers and a 1000 miles away in dreams. Bought two cups of butterscotch each. Parked the car. Walked on the footpath, eating ice-cream at 5:30 in the morning. Talking about daily lives. What more could one dream of? After 15 minutes, of talks that meant to her and life that meant to him they sat back in the car. Just when she couldn't stop talking, he hauled her with the best three words. Every time she hears it from him, it means a lot than the previous time. The meaning just gets deeper and deeper. They kissed. Yes, ice-creams does magic a lot many times. And so, continued the fairy tale again.
2012, May
She came back to the present. As if, life is a time machine. Just when she couldn't ask for more, her phone rang. It was him. And so the time took the same twirl again. The clock had stopped again...

Morning brimmed with Love

The room was already a mess. The empty bottles of wine were around the place. So were their wedding dresses, since last night. The curtains were flying with the wind. Suddenly the first ray of morning sunlight enters the room. She was already awake, in his shirt, came out of the bed. Quickly prepared tea for him and coffee for herself. She'd promised for the bed-tea for the entire life. Reached back to the bed and had set the pillow. With her back on it, she was waiting for the picture she'd be dreaming of  desperately; yet. The clock was ticking away. The birds were awake too, chirping. Clearly, it was morning. Their first morning together. The room was white-painted. The alarm didn't ring, she didn't set it. Sweetly, she didn't want alarm clock to wake him up. The sunlight slowly takes one step forward and reaches the floor. Another step, reaches the bed.

Her breathes getting faster. 

Another step, reaches his face.

She gasped slowly. 

"Here it is", she mesmerized.

The cup of love

The sunlight patiently touched her lover's face. First the hair, then the forehead, then the eyes, then the nose, then the lips. Her breaths had almost stopped. All these years she'd been await for this. Was it an Illusion? Or is it true? The jeopardized time had come. 

He getting irked a bit as the sunlight getting heavier on his eyes and takes a twirl getting into her lap with lines on his forehead. She hid him form the heavy sunlight. She watched him, immensely. Lingered her hands through his hair. "I Love you", she whispered.

The lines on his forehead quickly disappearing. Surely, this soothes him. Not the three magical words, but her voice. Her graceful voice calms his soul. 

He opens his eyes. The angelic being has reached the heavenly earth.

"Hi baby", she said, still lingering her hands through his hair. 

"Hi!", he said, holding her another hand to his chest, looking up to her face.

The room, before white, colorless, dull came to life with his voice. Shimmered with their Love. Colorful with hopes.

"Tea?" she said passing on the cup to him.

The talks continued again. 

Times comes and passes. What stays are the feelings and the
talks.

Surely, conversations are the best part of any relationship. People grow old, but the talks stay. 

And so, this still continues in their journey. The morning tea and the coffee. She waking up every morning earlier than him. After all, this was her dream. Waking up to her lover each morning.