Feels right

Bathing in the sulking tides
of whats wrong and whats right
I make the sins come true
Believe me, its real.

Bathing in the lush wild dreams
who thought they could exist
the body moves and lures
it feels so wrong.

Bathing in the starless night
the moon is shining so bright
The world whispers its wrong
You say its right.

Bathing in your acute thoughts
It is so wrong, yet feels so right
The confusions stay
I take a leap moving on.

Bathing in the dusty past
Am doing wrong,
am doing right
I am doing you,
for tonight.

Consume Me

Consume Me
Like the rain would
Consume the soil
Dont leave any trail

Consume me
Like the wind would
Consume the sky
Dont let the Sun shine

Consume me
Like the weeds would
Consume a dead body
Cover me bit by bit

And then mold me
Like a potter would
Mold a vase
out of nothing new

And then mold me
Forgetting my older body
create a new one
From your own hands

And then mold me
Despite many errors
I'll give you countless chances
Let me be discovered

And then mold me
In such a way
that you would love to
consume me
again & again

Let me be your song

Let me be your song
which you sing to the stars
when you are alone at night
or walking during day time

Let me be your song
Which you can sing to the birds
which at my window, once chirped
they left my paradise for your heaven

Let me be your song
which can open up your doors
of opportunities and love abound

Let me be your song
which you will hum to yourself
in monotonous tone when
you are amongst your friends

Let me be your song
which you can sing to the nature
when it soaks you in monsoon
or sweats you in summers

Let me be your song
which can be played when you
wait for your loved one
on your wedding day at the church

Let me be your song
your voice will give it beauty
Removing all your pains
Magical, Your life remains

Let me be your song, dear love
which you can lull to your kids
somewhere in future
Even when am dead

Let me be your song
which you can change the rhythm of
but the words will always remain the same

And I hope this is written on my tombstone that;
I was sung by the best soul all throughout his life
With each verse you gave me blessings
Making our each memory engrave on the aurora sky

Picture Courtesy- Hardik Photgraphy

Dormiveglia

The 4.30 am namaz  hits the ears, luckily the mosque is almost behind my home. Its funny though, I didn't understand the man's words yet the voice completely soothes the soul. 

Yesterday. No, night. Yesternight? 

Eyes wide open. Brain shut. Heart beating. Body frozen. Thoughts warm. Skin pale. Nails growing. Clock ticking. Breaths heard. Silence unheard. Pen scribbling. Foot walking. Conscious Dreams. Unconscious mind. Wind crawling. Leaves moving. Window open. Thin clothes. Thick socks. Unwashed sweatshirt. Hair tied.

 And then you invade.

Hazel eyes. Mind dreaming. Skin soft. Body warm. Whispering talks. Wind blows. Your face shows. Firm thoughts. Lights dim. Scent crawls. Aura seeps. Clock rewinds. Summers bloom. Soul talks. Murmur plans. Astounding heart. Breath collides.

Slowly the morning arrives, beautiful hues of orange or maybe yellow, fighting the black aura of night with zest. Each ray awakes each green soul. My night is losing the fight. And I, just look helplessly crawling into the bed which smells like you.

The namaz is over. As if sealing the union of two souls. 

aaj toh sunday hai na..

kya hua agar 

pyaar thoda zyada kar liya

kya hua agar

zarurat se tumhe kuch zyada chu lia

aaj toh sunday hai na

dhoodh ki jagah pyaar pilayenge

wo bhi ubaal ubaal kar tumhe chadhayenge

kya hua agar

narazagi  mein shikhayatein ghol di

kya hua agar

yuhi do chaar baatein thodi teekhi boldi

aaj toh sunday hai na

baaton ko mirchi banake jalayenge

fir upar se maafi ki mithas chakhayenge

kya hua agar

sach ke saath thoda jhooth bhi bol dia

kya hua agar

besabar hoke thoda gussa bhi kar dia

aaj toh sunday hai na

sachi jhoothi baatein dono saath parosenge

farak pehechanne ki poori chhot tumhe denge

kya hua agar

aaj khud ko thoda zyada sanwaar lia

kya hua agar

baalo ko do baar dho lia

aaj toh sunday hai na

itminaan se sajke tumhse duur rahenge

bas tumhari aankho mein khatkenge

kya hua agar

tumhare dost ko darwaze se hi bhaga dia

kya hua agar

agli baar khatkhatane par darwaza hi nahi khola

aaj toh sunday hai na

darwaze ko andar se taala lagake

tumhe apne aabroo mein band karenge

kya hua agar

bahut paas tumhare baith liye

kya hua agar

ghoor ghoor ke mann bharte chale gaye

aaj toh sunday hai na

nazro se khoob khel khelenge

ankahi adhoori baatein sabki guftagoo karenge

kya hua agar

mann ke chilmann ne bhagwaan tumhe maan lia

kya hua agar

tumhari chaukhat ko maathe se laga lia

aaj toh sunday hai na

ek din toh mitti ki murat ko bhulane do

mandir ke bhagwan ko chutti dekar aai hu

kya hua agar

nakhre aaj thode zyada kar liya

kya hua agar

tumhara haath thaamke raat ko paidal thoda zyada chal liye

aaj toh sunday tha na

agle sunday tak tumhe bechain karke jayenge

kuch samaan nahi

bas yaadein idhar udhar rakhke jayenge

bataurte rehna

ab agle sunday ka intzaar karte rehna

With You #OctPoWriMo 2013 day 6

The sudden moment which will come

when I shall see you before me

behold you, embrace you

My feet goes cold

The anxiety that comes with you

each time just doubles

I see stars in daytime

My heart makes a sound

The moment of impatience

to touch you or to feel

I halt, yes indeed

There's a crater in my soul

fear resides in it

The stomach churns when you talk

Lips shut tight

Are these butterflies? I dont know

But I know, I am a little nervous when you are around

If I might hurt you

That shall be a sin, in my words

I am a lover #OctPoWriMo 2013 day 5

I am a lover

who dreams day and night

to sit by your side

I am a lover

who wishes to count the stars

stuck on the blue black sky

and on some star-less nights

I shall look in your eyes instead

I am a lover

who prays of a morning maybe

when you are the first thing I see

I am a lover

who grows from inside 

but sometimes is all childlike

I am a lover

who count days when you are gone

The desperation kills me 

But the calender makes me wait

until I see you next

for patience is the key to your fortress

I am a lover

who sees and observes

the falling leaves or the rains

the windy days or cold nights

In them, I see your reminisces 

I am a lover

who talks of you all the time

not with others but with myself

For I dont mind

You left a part of you, in me, to reside

But more than a lover

I can be a friend

A companion when you need

Or a listener in longing

But more than a lover

I wish to be a person

who doesnt demand your love in return

But the one who

beholds your faith and trust

Hidden in your eyes #OctPoWriMo 2013 day 2

I imagine your eyes

Often in black & white

sometimes with a hint of sepia

or beautiful touch of brown

For its foolish of me

to draw them in my mind

I wonder what all they hide

I see beauty blended with colors

Painful past or mystical future

I have dreams with you

For you

But I hide

Blur them at the corner of my eyes

Sometime I shall bring them in

Present them at your feet

Till then let me imagine your eyes

This time in more colors

I wonder what all you hide in them

Just like I do in mine

ठंडे पाओं

बारिश के पानी में
फिर ना जाने क्यू
हाथ गरम और
पाओं ठंडे पड़ गये
सोचा फिर कोई नया खेल चला है तुम्हारा
ठंडा गरम, गरम ठंडा
मुड़के देखा पीछे तो कोई था नही
बस कुछ पेरो के निशान
कुछ नरम सी आहटे
दो चार और थोड़ी बातें
बेवफाह तुम नही
पर यादें हैं तुम्हारी
मनचाही अपने मन की करती हैं
जब मन करता है आ जाती हैं
यूही उठकर चली जाती हैं
गढ़ी की टिक टिक
या बारिश की टिप टिप
दोनो तुम्हारे नाम हैं
फिर सीधे पाओं चली
देखा एक धुंधली सी आस है आगे कोई
आँखो का कोहरा है
या मन का विश्वास है
आगे चलने लगी तो पाया
पाओं फिर ठंडे पड़े और हाथ गरम
झूठ कहा था नही आ रहे
अब तो तुम्हारे झूठ सच से ज़्यादा मीठे लगने लगे हैं
खुश्बुओं से कितने महेकाओगे आशियाने को
अछा अब बस भी करो
ये बारिश भी तुम्हारी साजिश है ना
अब बस भी करो
और उस आस ने हाथ थाम लिया
फिर पाओं ठंडे पड़े और हाथ गरम
लेकिन इस बार बारिश को नही कोसा
क्यूंकी अब वजह थे तुम

aaj mat jao kaam pe...

raat ka saaya gaya nahi abhi tak

tumhari baaton se mann bhara nahi abhi tak

thandi siskiyan jo tum lete ho

majboor kar rahi hain mujhe kehne par

... aaj mat jao kaam pe

baarish ki sulkhiyo mein bheege

garm haath tumhare... yaad toh hain

mehakte huye khushbuo mein

doobte huye gaano mein

shabdo ko batora hai maine

... ki aaj mat jao kaam pe

dhoop kitni hai baahar

thak gaye hoge tum is bhagdaud se

thoda waqt nikal bhi lo

apne liye, mere liye.. hamare liye

aur kya kahu tumhe? 

... bas, aaj mat jao kaam pe

Picture Courtesy- Hardik Photography

Melting Snow

The pain is over
The wait is done
The power to hold you
Is what I yearn
To look beyond the night
And hover above almighty sky
You make me forget the imperfect ones
As if you are the first & only
Your brown eyes & soothing soul
Will it be mine? I want to know
Oh! your warm skin and trembling hands
Makes my feet go cold & skin blush
My hopes, my desires are born again
Afresh, anew
Yes, you are the cause
Be mine, thats only I ask
I want to grow, I want to cry
I want to smile, I want to shy
I want to weep, I want to hide
I want to endure, I want to fly
The old skin will melt soon
I want to break the bonds
Take me to all heavens above
You made me realize- I love "Love"